Da Curious

so im officially in my "late" twenties now which ive been told falls between the range of 27 to 29 so thankfully im still in the first stage but the thing about being in your "late" category for anything is that you inevitably feel like time is running out. and in some sense it is. the twenties are the best years of your life (keep in mind i said the same thing in my teen years) and knowing that there's only three more years left can stress a girl out. funny because i always thought that by 27, id be a lot further along than i am now. for one i thought i would be going to the gym regularly...don't ask me why but i just always figured by the end of my 20's id be in shape but that's certainly not true. i thought for sure id start acting like an adult or at least have a better idea of what i wanted to do with my life and what traits im looking for in a guy but instead, i find myself just as confused as ever.

job wise i know i don't want to do accounting for the rest of my life but can't think of anything else i would want to do and still get the same amount of pay. i pretty much knew i didn't want to do anything accounting related my first year post college and here i am six years later still burning the midnight oil except now i work for a cooler company but am still chugging along like the little corporate worker that i am. suddenly being a housewife doesn't sound too bad. i could pull off baking cupcakes for pta meetings i think...or at least store bought cupcakes.

living wise i knew i eventually would end up in san diego but intially when i first moved up here in 2000, i thought for sure id move back down before i turned 30 but in thinking about it now...30 is right around the corner and im even starting to rethink if i even want to move back there. would i still like it as much as ive built up in my head or will i just inevitably get bored?

and finally guys. im no closer than when i first started dating to figuring out what im looking for and one really can't afford to waste any time in their prime years. one thing that always stuck with me was an ex who commented to me several times after we broke up that he really wished he would of known we weren't going to work out earlier because we basically dated right up till the end of his prime and while he didn't consider it a "waste" he did say it made things tougher for him.

i thought for sure once i hit my late twenties id start feeling like an adult but i don't. i wonder if im always going to feel like this...a kid at heart but forced to grow up and act my age. but ive decided to take a new approach and instead of lamenting to everyone about being old, ive decided that i need to embrace my late twenties instead of freaking out about it (which will be easy seeing how i really only feel that way when talking to my mom who conveniently is on a three week cruise at the moment) and in the meantime, maybe i'll even try to hit the gym once or twice a month. after all ive still got two more years to get in shape.