Da Curious

my mom's coming to visit tomorrow night and staying through sunday. four nights and five days. the longest time she's ever come to stay with me and what makes this trip different is just that. she's staying with me at my place the entire time. all the other times that she's visited, she's stayed with my aunt in san jose and id come over to see her or go to dinner or have her come see my place but at the end of the night, i always ended up at my own place. wihch is just the way i like it. but now that my aunt has moved and no longer has her own townhouse and seeing how she'll be out of town, in israel of all places, this trip is meant solely to visit me. im sure we'll still be making a stop at my uncle's place but besides that it's me that is left to entertain her and im feeling quite nervous about it. and worried.

as i won't be taking any time off from work while she's here - she'll be left to her own devices thursday and friday to entertain herself. initially she was to come up thursday night but changed her mind at the last minute to come up a day early so she could "explore" the city and in her words, take the bus around. which to me is the worst idea ever. i have no problems with her milling around the streets in my nieghborhood and seeing the shops and so forth but anything that goes beyond a walking distance, i find myself getting worried. much like a parent worries about their child i would think - it's weird that i am now in this role reversal. i find myself worrying about what if she gets lost on the bus? what if she misses her stop? does she know how to read a map? just because im not the greatest at it (granted i have gotten so much better now you don't even know) i automatically assume everyone else with similar genetics gets lost like me but keep in mind here her english isn't the greatest, she won't know the street names and isn't the best at keeping her cell phone on at all times.

is this normal? because i never used to get like this. maybe it's a sign im growing up but i have this feeling ill be calling her while im at work to "check" up on her. which is exactly what i promised myself in sixth grade i would never do when i grew up. i remember getting asked out on a date and having to go home, ask my parents for permission, getting turned down and then me crying in my room and making a list of everything that i would NOT do when i became a parent and now i find myself just like them.

it's funny how your viewpoint changes in ten years. i get flashbacks of myself breaking curfew all the time, not calling, coming home late and believe it or not, actually running away from home for a couple days...all of which i would never do now obviously but if i knew back then how parents worry, im a little ashamed of all that ive put them through.

but not to digress too much, my mom's visit this week has got me all jumbled. im nervous she'll be bored. i even contemplated going out to rent chinese movies for her but then realized i would have no idea where to go. im not even really sure where im going to take her since ive never had to play tour guide before although i did make dinner reservations for us saturday night. my treat of course. on top of all this worrying and stressing though, i am pretty excited for her to come although i think i may need to sleep on the couch. ive never been able to sleep in the same room as my mom but i am looking forward to some home cooked chinese food, lots of it and she is my favorite shopping partner of all time so if im lucky, we'll be hitting up the shops a little bit.